Rid me of myself

For so many years I was ashamed of my past. People would ask me questions about it and I was cautious to tell them truth. I look back on that part of my life and laugh knowing that's what made me who I am today. God allowed me to walk through the valley a time or two for His greater purpose and Glory. I am so thankful that God allowed me to experience adversity in my life. I now feel a heavy responsibility to use my life experience to help others who may be struggling with similar issues. God has called my husband Erik and I into ministry and to be honest.... I am completely petrified but I feel a peace about being scared out of mind as strange as that sounds. I am humbling myself to the Lord saying I can't do this but I am so broken and stripped down Lord that I can be a vessel for you to shine your light. I know as long as I stay in this place of servanthood knowing that I am NO WAY worthy of the blessings and responsibilities He has given me, that is when God can move in and transform. I am not perfect and I never will be. The only hope I have is knowing God is Love and God is Grace. I am overwhelmed knowing that God has been so patient with me and He has waited long enough. I want to turn everything over to Him. Every weakness, every bad attitude over to the only One who can rid me of myself and fill me with His grace. My time here on earth is not my time to spend, it's His time to be worshipped and glorified.